Where Are You?

"Where are you? Where are you?"

I cry out, "where are you?" It is dark and I feel lost, alone, and scared. 

He gently whispers, "I am here where I have always been. My Daughter, where have you been?"

I sigh, because I immediately know that once again I have been on a journey without my Lord. I have left Him waiting for my return.

I hang my head. I am ashamed and embarrassed.

He gently lifts my chin. We lock hearts. And the embrace that comes next is one that releases the breath that I did not even know I had been holding for all this time. The embrace lasts for a long time. When He pulls back I feel a freedom that I had been longing for, for far too long.

This is the cycle of my life. I set out on my own path, with my own plan all too often and leave my Lord waiting on my return. Where He picks up the pieces and cleans up the mess I made and continues to love me without condition or exception.

My Lord is so so good and so so faithful. He gives though I do not deserve. 

He was and is and is to come. He has and will always be. 

His love is different than the love of this world and this generation. I am truly thankful and glad.

I want to love like Him. I want to give like Him. I want to be like Him.

I fail often. I disappoint often. I leave often. Too often. 

He never leaves. He never fails. He never disappoints. He loves me.

He loves you. More than you could ever fathom. More that I can ever fathom.

He calls out to you, "where are you my beloved?"

How will you answer?

Lord Jesus,

I pray right now for every reader. I pray for the light to finally break through the darkness. I pray for the truth to finally destroy all lies. I pray that Your love would transform their life the way that it has transformed mine and beyond. I pray for courage to believe and follow. I pray for grace and mercy to embrace them. I pray for the embrace that they have been longing for all of their lives. In Jesus' mighty name I pray. Amen.