When the capacity to connect is all but gone.

 Hello again readers (if anyone is out there),

I have been thinking the past few days about what the different seasons of our lives can look like. I have been surprised at the drastic change in my own capacity to reach out and connect in this season of my life. 

Anyone ever struggled there too?

I find it quite difficult to talk on the phone for long periods of time like I used to. I find it difficult to remember birthdays and other holidays now. 

There was once a season where I stayed on the phone chatting away and I never missed a birthday or holiday. I love birthdays and holidays. 

I find that now when I think about those things it makes me increasingly tired. I feel like I am going to fail to celebrate even before I begin. 

Planning birthday parties for my children is so stressful and taxing. However, I love birthdays and I love celebrating that my loved ones were born. It is so so important to me. Yet, I find myself failing at it.

Remembering important things comes as a struggle, even with my two planners and iPhone calendar. 

What in the world? 

Is it old age? Is it going back to work? Is it cellphone use? Is it emotions?

I do not have the answer. Likely it is a great combination of all of the above.

Are you there too friend? Are you feeling like you are disconnected and have zero energy to find your way back. 

Let's pray together that the Lord will help us in this area...

Jesus, right now we are struggling in the area of connection. We want to connect and reach out and love our people big but we are finding that difficult in this particular season. We know that you know the where's and why's of it all. We ask Lord that you reveal to us the things that we can do better and different. We ask that you be our strength in our weaknesses. We ask Jesus that you speak to our hearts and help us find our way back. Lord, we trust you and we love you and we know that you have our very best interests at heart ALWAYS. So we ask you to lead us and guide us and help us to be obedient. In Jesus' name. Amen